Where am I?

Posted: January 29, 2016 in All Things Trans

Where are the words, that used to flow from my hands as easily as taking a breath in and out.

Why have I lost my art?

Why have I lost myself?

Where have I gone?

What have I become?

I used to be full of happiness and now it has faded away from me.

Why am I not happy?

Who is the real me?

Where is my poetry?

I used to be a little bird that would sing when I was sad and make myself happy. Yet that has gone away from me.

Where is my voice?

Where is my song?

Where have I gone?

What has become of me?

All it feels now a days is that I am a cog in the machine. Nothing more nothing less. Not even a human being anymore.

Where is my soul?

Why am I lost in the Matrix?

Just feeling coded and not an individual anymore.

Where am I?

What has become of me?

Why am I a slave to my society?

Just fit in and try your best.

Be the Actress you where meant to be and not the Actor you feel inside.

 

Where am I?

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

The (Trans)cendental Tourist

It’s been a weird year for trans people.

Allow me to be more specific: It’s been a heated, daring, tumultuous, graphic, specularizing, aggressive, pointed, contentious, highly fatal, and really, really complicated year for trans people.

Here are a few examples: Kristina Gomez Reinwald, Ty Underwood, Lamia Beard, and many other transwomen of color have been brutally murdered at the hands of lovers, family members, and strangers. Meanwhile, Laverne Cox and Janet Mock have come to fame and exhibited incredible feats of grace, articulation, and poignancy under the gaze of an eager media. Blake Brockington, Leelah Alcorn, Taylor Alesana, and many other transgender youth have committed suicide after enduring endless bullying and systematic brutality. Meanwhile, Jazz Jennings became the new face of Clean & Clear and published a children’s picture book about her life, and teen trans couple Arin Andrews and Katie Hill (best known for “Can You Even Believe They’re Trans?!” types of headlines) wrote and published individual books…

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a gentleman and a scholar

As much as I write about trans issues, particularly those outside of a binary framework, I realised recently that the majority of that writing is about education, media, specific activist events or frameworks.

Not that I think any of that is a bad thing – but it does leave out something that I, and a lot of other trans people, do in our day to day lives – we swap advice on the practicalities of living in a cissexist, transphobic world.

So here’s what I have on navigating the world as someone who does not (or does not primarily, or straightforwardly) live as a man or a woman.* If you’re new to this, I hope it helps. If you’re an old hand, I’d love to hear your advice. It should go without saying that no one should feel obliged to act as I do to have their gender recognised. But…

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Transitions of My Life

Posted: March 2, 2015 in All Things Trans
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Life transitions are always hard for me.  Hell I think they are hard for everyone. Change is just a growing pain of life.

So in December 2014 I had to find a new living area and thankfully I found a friend and have been with them for the past 3 months.

In about two weeks I am going to be 22 years old. Which amazes me that I have come this far. Hell last year I was even more amazed at getting to 21.  Plus with transgender statistics people in my category only live to 23 and I hope I survive longer then that.

My life has been an up hill climb both ways these last three years for me.

So, I guess what I am getting at is that I am amazed that I am still alive and kicking and able to make posts still.

When I keep seeing transgender people getting killed by being themselves or doing it to themselves in the form of suicide due to not having a support net to fall back on which makes me sad and angry at the same time.

Why is our society so messed up that just due to not being afraid to be the real you, can kill you?

It Is What It Is

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~~February 10, 2015~~ 

Powerful …. just for one minute, put yourself in this human being’s shoes!!

(Please, watch this video with the sensibility it’s intended to have. No intention to offend).

RR23

Ruby Rose: ‘I used to pray to God that I wouldn’t get breasts’

The Australian model, DJ and television personality opens up about her struggle with gender identity depicted in her new video

Everybody has a crush on Ruby Rose. Her heart-shaped jaw and piercing eyes first caught the attention of modeling agents when she was a child, and by her teens she was known as the cool tattooed girl on Australian MTV (her audition process required her to pound shots of beer and make out with strangers in the street).

And being gay was not much of a problem for mainstream television. While accepting an award for Favorite Female Personality in 2009, Rose impulsively blurted a question…

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Gallery  —  Posted: March 2, 2015 in All Things Trans, LGBTQ

Fusion

There’s something really powerful about portraits, especially when the subject is staring right back at you.

And even more so when that subject is “rarely visualized,” to use the words of photographer Jess T. Dugan. Starting in the fall of 2013, Dugan traveled the country taking photos of a group of people she says deserve to be seen more often: transgender and gender variant people over the age of 50.

Dugan’s work—a collaboration with Vanessa Fabbre, a scholar and professor of social work at Washington University in St. Louis—comes as older trans people are just barely beginning to break through into mainstream culture. Even though over half of the trans population in the U.S. is over the age of 50, it wasn’t until last month that Jeffrey Tambor, 70, won a Golden Globe for playing a father transitioning of as a woman in the Amazon series “Transparent.”

Fusion spoke with…

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